Love..

I was sitting on the beach,thinking about you.
Arose a question in my mind,
how much do i love you?
Looking at the waves hitting the shore,
some touching phrases came out of the core.
How the waves love the shore!
Is that the way i love you?

I looked at the sun in search of you,
I also peeped at the morning dew,
I search you here,i search you there,
But i see you always everywhere.
Even at the sea that i stare.
Is that the way i love you?

Before the sun could see me
And along with the morning dew
I saw something amazing,
To my eyes it was new.
Two white doves looking at each others eyes,
without moving or being shy,
Promised to be togethar or die.
Is that the way i love you?

And then i remembered what you said,
When the wind through my hair blew.
Hpw much you loved me sometime back,
And how much that love grew.
You kept on saying"You know you are mine,till the end of world,till the end of time!"
At last i felt,on the sand while lying,
This is the way i love you!

The one month of my singleton got over within a week[infact it wasnt there].My life is in a mess now,my boards are after 4 months and still nowIdnt feel like studying.Infact i want to study but some how i cant.These coming 4 months are going to decide my future,and i seriously need to gear up now.But i somehow cannot study, i still donot have any sort of tention about my boards,though i know that if i dont get a minimum of 80% no good college is going to take me.I want to get into any top college of India,because i till date i have always been in the best schools and now im in such a state that i cannot survive in collges like jogomaya or south city[no offence].On top of that my boy friend tells he has to go away to singapore for his higher studies ,he has his career and i seriously dont want him to sacrifise his career for me[why should he?]But i know,that its kind of impossible for me to imagine my life without him[though my life is not as rosy as it seems to be].Everyone has to move on in life,even i will have to.

Its high time i have to seriously start studying from nowonwards,these 4 months i have to devote to myself and build up my career.I love rick and so does he but this love will not be there if after 4 months im in a crappy college,with no future.I want to be famous but i donot no the path.lord please show me thy light.