Friday, November 30, 2007

This marked the beginning of their obsession for each other……eventually raunak proposed raina and the obvious answer was awaiting……They gradually got used to each others company , there was not a single hour when they didn’t talk to each other. Raina used to stay moderately far off from raunaks place but then after almost a year their family shifted close by to raunaks place. Both of them were on the seventh heaven….They met up everyday for hours and hours, initially they never fought with each other, they were like the best , cutest and the most talked about couple in the school circuit.Everybody came to know about their relationship including their parents and relatives.Raunak first went Rainas place on saraswati puja so he was dressed up in Indian attire and undoubtedly looked very handsome and with his innocent face and charming personality he impressed rainas mother and family.Raina went to Raunaks place on the same day in a saree and even she had created quite an impression on Raunaks mother, with her friendly, childlike and lovable nature.The only person who was ignorant about the affair was Rainas father, and in due course even he came to know about their affair……That week was a week of utter anxiety in Rainas family because her father though himself had a love marriage was very conservative and orthodox when it came to his daughter and wife. Raina never had the courage to talk about any boy with her father so this was a drastic step for her.But after a week ultimately the strict father had to bend down in front of his daughters wishes…..Her father invited Raunaks family for dinner at their place and with time both the families developed a good relationship among themselves.


Everything was going their way now, their families had accepted their relationship to an extent that even they started thinking that both will land up getting married, in fact not only the families but even their friends and other who knew them.Both of them were very popular in their own ways……Now that every problem was solved arouse problems among themselves, as they say the journey of life is never smooth. The couple that never fought started fighting with each other on a regular basis and the main reason of their fights were their insecurity for each other. They both got lot of male and female attention, which they both enjoyed but neither Raunak nor Raina could bear the fact that their better halves were getting that much attention….They both had a tremendous fear of loosing each other which was good in one way because this was the binding factor between both of them. They forgot that they both were just 17 and all this was natural…The two kids started behaving like grown up adults…….They kept on having never ending fights, and had their own share of infidelity which was not exactly that unsmiling, but they portrayed that as if there could have been no crime bigger than that.

Finally they had given their board examinations and the alarm bell rang …..It was time for true test…….Raunak got through Singapore and Raina was planning to get admitted in a college in mumbai, she wanted to do media.But the thought of getting separated from each other haunted raina and she couldn’t bear that….She was ready to go to any state and study…..she just wanted raunak to stay back…..she expressed her frustration by fighting with him, but it was just anather emotional vent. Nights after nights she used to have dreams of Raunak going away to Singapore and dating some hot girl there.She used to cry , go under depression, she was not worried about her own self but she kept on thinking about where Raunak would go…..Raunak had filled up forms in Delhi University but he was determined about Singapore , so raina to take revenge filled up forms in mumbai…..But finally Raunak went to Delhi……..Raina was the happiest person in the world that day, she was on seventh heaven……She thought that any how she will get admitted in any college in delhi, she started calling up every college of delhi, asked her parenst to use every possible contacts, in the mean while the results of the mumbai colleges came out and she lied to her parents that she didn’t get through any college when she actually did.She took the risk, finally her dad agreed to send her to a private college in delhi to study media…everything was set and done, the flight tickets were booked.The night before they were leaving for delhi her dad came in and showed her few slips……He found out the university he was sending her to was a fraud one.It didn’t have affiliation and it was the most unsafe place for girls. For Raina the world had come to an end, there was nothing beyond that.She fought with her parents, she stopped having food, went out of the house, she had gone insane.Raunak on the other hand could not understand the situation there in kolkata….After 3 days Rainas aunt called up and said that she got through the best college in mumbai for media , this was the college she had dreamt of going to. But raina wasn’t happy, she didn’t want to go, her parents forced her, she had spent a lot of money for this admission procedure in mumbai. So out of compulsion and with utter disagreement she went to mumbai. After that there grew a huge distance between them.Raunak misunderstood raina, so he started avoiding her, he barely called her up and kept his cell switched off all day and night. Raina was in a girls college where was Raunak in a co –ed college, this was a constant headache for raina. She kept on getting depressed with every passing day, She used to skip her lunches and save up 120 bucks each day to call Raunak up, but then his phone was always switched off. She finally took out all the money she had from the ATM and bought two and fro tickets for raunak to come to mumbai because she couldn’t go to delhi.They had a deadline at their pg and her pg aunty was a bitch. The day before raunak was coming to mumbai he made excuses of not being able to come, this made raina go mad and crazy. But finally he came and they spend 2 whole days with each other.These two days were the happiest moments of rainas life, she went to all the beaches she wanted to go with raunak , but somehow she got a cold feeling from raunaks side.This killed het from inside, she was very egoistic, she started talking to random people on orkut to make him jealous, and raunak the way he is got jealous. Raunak was going to kolkata for the pujas but she had her semesters right after that, her parents didn’t want her to come to kolkata then.She didn’t tell anybody, she bout a flight ticket to kolkata with all the money she had and went to kolkata and right from the time she landed, they started fighting with each other. Her dad didn’t talk to her for a single day in her stay in kolkata , her mother was also very annoyed with her.She went back to mumbai just before the day her semster began and she was not prepared at all. Raunak kept fighting with her during ger semesters because of some rumour he heard about her and she kept crying and screwed her exam.She thought of breaking up with him this time after a very cheap action of raunak.That day she lost all respect for raunak but she still loved him a lot, she dint know why. When she went back to kolkata this time Raunak sat all night below her house and kept apologising, Raina couldn’t stop herself and again again went back to him. The next few days they again started behaving like a lovey dovey couple but but then Raunak had to go away to delhi. She was left all alone in kolkata again, but here she ahd many friends, After few days she got introduced to a guy who was her room mates friend…..She wanted to hook her friend and that guy up……So she started to talking to the guy….But raunak had again started his ignoring sessions once he reached delhi and kept suspecting her for very menial reasons….She started conversing with this boy on a regular basis when suddenly one day she said that she was frustrated with raunak to the new friend, and after listening to the whole situation like every other opportunist this boy told her that she was making the right decision….And in the mean while he proposed raina , raina thought he was very good and he could be a good to date, she was not attracted to him but she thought she was….While all this was happening in kolkata, there was a completely different scene going on at Delhi, raunak was planning to come to kolkata to meet her……When she heard that she was overwhelmed but by then she had been manipulated also….She was in dual mind…..She didn’t know what to do……In this confusion she landed up hurting the man of her life, the boy whom she loved more than herself, the boy about whom she was obsessed…….He cried in front of her , but she kept re-collecting her bad experiences with him and forgot about all the happy moments…..Raunaks parents started hating her and so did raunak…..She didn’t even say yes to the other guy and finally she turned out to be the looser.Because the very next day after she broke up she called raunak to say that she loved him and wanted to patch up…Raunaks friends abused the shit out of her……

Both of them went back to their respective cities……..Raina kept trying, she didn’t loose hope,Raunak finally patched up also, but then for some lame, insignificant reason, he broke up with her. He needed an excuse to breakup…..He changed his number, insulted her in front of his female friends and they never spoke to each other again……………

3 comments:

Unknown said...

won't say much about this
but have only one thing to say......love hurts and sometimes its a good hurt......because once i also faced the same things which raina faced.....it only helped me to grow up into a better person.....

Unknown said...

pretty deep shrii !
youve decribed every feelin so well..situations where there are too many options that theres none.
theres nothin to do, but look back and think...what wer you thinkin'

~R!tuP@rna~ said...

hey shrim.we r strangers but it has been a long time i m readin ur blog n well hav read ur orkut pro atleast innumerable times...well.,lemme cum straight.our lives r the same.bt the only diffrnce lies...u r strong..am not.u dunno me.bt dunno y i know we bth go thru the same feelings..n i know its urs n raunaks story..i know sorta stuff..i like the way u cope up wd stuff n probs.my bfs a cancer n me a capricorn.n trust me its hell a prob to cope up wid heartbreaks..am goin thru the sme ryt now..my career n my lovelife...alls in mess..
feel free to contct me-id-ritzy_capricorn@yahoo.in.
i ll b glad if u contct me.

n yes hell no...in case u think censored things-NO...am not a lesbo!i know its strange..but ur n my life are sorta same.,tremendously the same pangs of unbearable pain ..agony thoghts of seperation,dilemma ...pride ego...i hav gone thru all...
well enuf for u toknow abt me..